MES ÉTOILES

I've been meaning to write a post about my friends for a couple of days now, but since it's #InternetFriendsDay today (apparently?), I'm going to do it now. It might be a shitty post considering I'm sleepy but it's filled with love.

I've been using social media for almost ten years now. The first internet friends I've made were my facebook friends. I'm not in touch with most of them anymore, but my first one, Kiki, remains.

I met her when I was in the fourth grade, and she was in fifth. I was there when she was going through her Rebelde stage, she was there when I was going through my many phases, including a Bruno Mars phase and, of course, being a directioner. We've seen each other in person once and - stupid us - were in a some sort of fight at the time. I don't even remember what it was about, but we just said hi to each other and didn't hang out. She moved to Germany a few years later. We realized how stupid we were and now we're close. And I love her. And I can't believe I was 10 years old when I met her... I hope we'll reach 100 together.

When I moved to Twitter, I met so many people. They were all really nice, but I didn't stay in touch with all of them. But! I met some of my favourite people and I wouldn't stand losing them.

Claudia is someone who I'm most thankful for. I don't know how it happened, but all of a sudden I just loved her. I missed her whenever we didn't talk, even though we talked about really stupid things. She made me really happy. She still does. Just seeing her name in my notifications makes my heart jump with joy. I'm so thankful she chose to include me in my life because I know she was really hesistant about it. I love her so much and I am going to tie a flower around her finger as soon as I see her.

In about two months, it'll be a year since I first started talking to Rhune. We have almost nothing in common, but she's one of my favorite people. She's the cutest and most precious human being and I'm so happy I have someone like her in my life. To this day I still can't believe we breathed in the same city.... I'm just waiting to meet her and tell her how much I love her and how cute she is in person.

Tena is old, but she's cool. And I love her. I can't put it into words how thankful I am for every time she checked up on me and asked me how I'm doing. She made me love her in a really short amount of time and I have no regrets. She's adorable and funny and cute and I hope I'll be like her when I reach that age (although I'll Never be able to dance... at all, especially not like her).

I know you all probably hate geminis, but I love this girlie who shares birthdays with me so much. And I really need to think of a nickname for her.... Anyway, Klara is the best and she's too nice to me. She's given me so much even though I don't deserve and she's been there for me in her way and it meant the world to me. And no matter how similar we are, she'll be the superior girl born on may 27 because she's Tall and Gorgeous and Talented and Amazing and I can't want for us to cry over Jongin together.

Last but not least, actually the most important one, the woman, the myth, the legend. I've always wanted to be close friends with Linda, because she's amazing. And mysterious. And adorable. And I can't believe I talked to her in person and hugged her, it's so unreal. I don't deserve her nor everything she's done for me. I love Linda with my entire heart and seeing her again is what's keeping me going and helping me survive school until summer break.

Of course, I also love every single one of my friends who made me happy and I might have lost touch with lately (I don't want to say names but you know who you are and you should know I Love you). And I love every single person who sent me a message to see if I'm okay and to tell me I can talk to them if I want to on the day he died, and there was over thirty of them. It was a beautiful sentiment that means so much to me.

The internet is a dark, ugly place, but it's also really beautiful if you find the right people. And I've found the right ones. They truly are like stars, mes étoiles - they're really far away but they seem closer than they are. And I love all my friends I've met online and I'll always be thankful for all of them, even the facebook ones I haven't talked to in at least five years. Because they made my life better in that period we were friends in and it means the world to me.

And no matter how many times my parents tell me internet friends are worthless because they're far away and I might never meet them, I'll just remind them that they texted me every single day in the past two months to see how I'm doing. Because they care. And I'll never be able to thank them enough.